SCHOOL?

SCHOOOL! Public school is a waste of time. I hate the shopping,getting my hair done, and the first day of school. sure Im itching to know witch one of those popular wannabes are leaving and witch are staying but thats not worth all my time.As for my old flame well.....Im not sure. We havent talked sence school ended I do miss him but Im not sure the sparks are here, The relationship was not that well to begin with it seemed more forced than anything. but rest assure he was my first will always remain that, as for the continuing of our relationship im not sure if that will have much endurance. And who knows we may not be the perfect match we tought we were, or we migh have moved on already.Once we hopefully reunited if its maint to be It'll happen not i hope we can at least remain my friend he is my zander.My cyber babes I feel sorry stringing him along,but what else am i suppose to do i cant bare to tell him the truth to tell him our entire relationship is a lie, that in real life we could never be together,i think he's falling in love with my cyber self what am i suppose to say to him. I would have loved to date him maybe we could have fallin in love but too bad its simply cannot happen, its all a lie. We live in two different world, he is unaware of the true me he is only in love our fantasy self. If we could remain our fantasy self we could fall in love but with a dose of reality me and my supposed twin are not who he tought we were.As My zander on the other end what is he going to say, how is he going to act? How is he going to talk to me, what are they gonna think how are they gonna clash what will happen in the end? I have no idea afterall who knows in the name of love?

Caught in the Middle

These couple of days haveshown me that friendshipand betrayal can sometimes go hand and hand, and that confliction can tear a family apart. recently i was caught in the middle of a terrible situation. unfortumaely baming the another person as the victim simply bacuase i didnt know her side of the story, now thats not me. after some soul searching and learning both stories i found myself not choosing a side because these are people and there lives should not be toyed with, why should i have to pick a side there both my friends and both deserve the benefit of the doubt.Today I am lost in my thoughts not knowing what to beliveve, what not to believe. Ive been here before, in this widing path it reminds me why i am the way that I am. You see i use to that sweet nce girl who always did what she was told and singed at church everyday, and prayed god every waking hour. Ths was until I relized Life is a bitch and sometimes you have to be one too,so I stopped being so nice because I was tired of getting walked all over, I started cuttiing to get over the pains and distress of life, and as for church why pray and worship a god who cannot lve your life for you. was done being naive I had to go out there and live my life that wanted, so that same day I did what i felt like doing, which was getting 2 new piercings. So next tme you want to ask me who am and why Ill tell you the story of how i used to be and how became the way that i am, and why. Because you don't know me until you really get to know me.